Depression is one word and so easy to say when honestly, it controls each of our day.
Depression is very scary, so if I was you I wouldn’t pass any judgement, especially if you haven’t fought it or dealt with it.
Depression is like a rollercoaster, except for you cannot control it and sometimes it’s very hard to focus.
The sun just be arises as I go to get in the bed and my mind whispers “You’re just better off dead.”
I always push through those words and get through my day but sometimes it’s really hard to concentrate.
Friends and family look absolutely disgusted I try to tell them the truth but depression won’t allow me to trust.
Playing like your I’ll/sick, with a severe cold or even the flu, but honestly I’m sick in my head and depression makes sure you know that that is in fact true.
Honestly, you can’t expect people to know the truth about your pain and sorrow, if only it was possible to let people borrow your mind just for one time, to understand your pain and sorrow.
Depression cause your mind to race constantly with many different thoughts, not being able to rest, your mind just wanders.
Which can guide me to sleep for the most fitting of the night.
Hey depression can you let me sleep? I’m not sure maybe I might. Depression says no so I’m up most of the night.
Wondering why depression is doing you like this… making you feel hopeless. And in your (our) mind it‘s up-roaring.
Most people are cozy in bed and cuddled tight, and here I am up all night, and has to be ready for this fight.
Some people tell me I’m strong but honestly it’s not how I feel, depression makes it hard to know what’s even real. Makes it hard to even see things clear.
Here I am up yet again and the sun arises once again, it’s really no surprise though but I will fight this til the end.
And I believe you can to, continue to fight through this. You (we) got this!! Never lose focus and learn to cope with it. You can beat this, we can beat this.
And if you believe you may have a mental health disorder/mental illness don’t be ashamed to say you need help because we all need help sometimes no matter what it is. But we all do. Mental Health is very important, and not getting help it’ll just get even worse.
Therapy/counseling is the best thing you can do for you, it shows that you care for you. You care about your life and willing to fight. You are not alone so don’t ever believe that… and I said that because sometimes depression, or any other mental illness can make you feel as if you’re all alone. You’re not. There’s people all over the world struggling from or with a mental illness. So, don’t ever think you’re alone in this.
Get the help that you need so you can heal, and go on that journey to getting better, healing, and coping. Also by taking your medications like you’re suppose to, and keeping up with all your appointments.

For most of my life I’ve struggled with social anxiety disorder, along with generalized anxiety disorder, OCD, and depression. During the worst of it, I was on strong medication and medical disability benefits due to my fear of job interviews. I would feel uncomfortable or awkward in public 90 percent of the time. I found it difficult to relax and be myself around people, even with friends that I have known for years.
I am sharing my story of healing to let you know it can get better, as long as you do the work.
Born Shy and Sensitive
I was always a shy and sensitive kid, but I didn’t even know what social anxiety disorder was until I went to see my first psychologist. I believed I was born shy, and there was nothing I could do to fix it, so I didn’t even try. I had given up on myself, convinced I didn't win the genetic lottery, so better luck next lifetime.
For years I suffered in silence. I felt so embarrassed and ashamed t that I didn’t tell anyone or seek help. I was raised to believe it was weak to talk about feelings. When I did try to tell people, I felt they didn’t understand me or what I was going through. I was told things like “harden up” and “who cares what others think?” I have since come to realize that admitting you need help and talking about your feelings is one the bravest things you can do.
Asking for help is the first step to change: If you act like everything’s all right when it’s not, how do you expect anyone to be able to help you? Statistics show that most people suffer in silence for around 10 years before seeking help with social anxiety. That is crazy because this condition is treatable.
How Everything Changed
My life changed when I sought help. I went to see psychologists and I met a former social anxiety sufferer who, through a lot of effort on his part, managed to persuade me that social anxiety was not a life sentence. Once I believed that I could overcome social anxiety, everything changed for me.
The psychologists taught me to stop calling myself hurtful names like loser, ugly, and weird. They taught me to accept myself for all of who I am, good points and bad. They taught me that nobody's perfect, but that’s OK because I don’t need to be perfect or never appear awkward for others to like and accept me.
Instead of always looking for others to approve of who I am, they taught me to look for my own feelings of self-worth and validation. When that happened, all of a sudden what other people thought of me didn’t seem to matter that much anymore. I became more concerned with how I felt about me.
Tools and Knowledge
If you are currently going through something similar, I really encourage you to go and see a psychologist. They have tools and knowledge that can help you overcome this condition. For example, my psychologist introduced me to a technique called EFT (emotional freedom techniques). EFT has been instrumental in helping me get over social anxiety. But there are many other therapies that have helped people with social anxiety.
I am now paying it forward by teaching others what I have learned on my journey to healing social anxiety and shyness. My mission is to let people know social anxiety is not a life sentence and with some work, you can get over it too.